Not sure if I can take it

I told myself that if I didn't call him for a week, it wouldn't phase him a bit; I also told my friend that if I didn't call for a week it would phase him a bit...I was right. The last night I really talked TALKED to my boyfriend was on July 4th to see what his plans were (mind you were in an LDR) and to see how his day went because he had the day off from work, and even then we didn't really talk about much outside of our plans for the evening. I've called him twice since 4th of July, one was to get him to come online so that one of our mutual friends who hasn't talked to him in awhile could talk to him; a simple can you get online was all that was said. I called him Sunday to see how his lan party went because apparently he had a lan party with 25 people at his house on Saturday night, he still had people over at his house so I let him go...he told me he'd talk to me in awhile but never called back.

It's out of character, I suppose, you could say for me to NOT call him and NOT go online (we both play World of Warcraft) to his server to talk to him a little bit. I'm the one that always calls, always tries to keep up with him, see how he's doing, what he's been up too, make sure things are okay on his end etc. and I figured I'd see how long it'd take for him to do the same for me...yeah I didn't get what I wanted. I suppose I thought that with me not coming online or me calling, that he would call to see how I was, what I've been up too and at least check on me to make sure things are okay since it's not normal for me to not call & attempt to talk to him. His excuse is the same as always; I've been really tired and really busy. Yeah really busy & really tired but not so much that you can have 25 people over on Saturday night which ended up staying until 6pm the following evening for a lan party, I guess you're only too tired and too busy when it comes to me, your girlfriend, someone you say you love & care about & want to be with yet you put no effort and take no intiative to even talk to me...whatever. I honestly don't know if I can take it anymore, the feeling of not feeling wanted, the feeling of not mattering, the feeling of putting my heart & my feelings on the line for someone that doesn't seem to care (although he says he does). And it hurts even more because it's been 7 months, I do care about him, I do love him, I do want to be with him...but I'm not happy, now I have to do what's best for me.